My Life

2010-08-03T09:20:00.004+08:00

Gotta update once awhile..
Lemme see..On 24th & 25 July was there for cousin wedding..
It was cool..I love my outfit eventho' the weather was hot.
26th July 2010 was a memorable one..
Didnt expect & unbelievable that i went out with her..
Go for Hippo Ride which was bought a yr back for her..
Gave her the ticket on her bday but instead she ask me along..
Such a happy,touching moment get to see her after a long time..
31st July..Involve working for NDP..Tiring yet fun..
And today marks the month of August..
Countdown to fasting month & my birthday!!Woohoo..
Gotta be officially ''two-two''..
I wanna be at RWS,new cable car..Hmm..Wanna see you..
Take Care..

2010-06-25T17:10:00.004+08:00

FINALLY IM BACK YAW....

Been very busy & mostly lazy to update..
Went to ZOO on 20th June 10 with great peeps..
Of course took e free tickets offered from workplace.
Eventhough was a very sleepy tiring day as it falls on
my first off,ive endured & enjoy e moments..
Wish could have the whole day there..
And of course..Didnt expect to see Dora & friends at Zoo..
Since it's Sirin's favourite..We manage to take photo..
♥I wish i could see you again....♥

2010-02-02T22:57:00.003+08:00

Didnt expect to see u today...
Didnt expect u to noe that i was at bb otw home..
Didnt expect to take a long bus ride wif u n hazwan..
Didnt expect anythg from u...
Feelings at the moment in time?Mixture?
Happy,glad,sad,angry,hate?I dunno...
Perhaps im still furious at u..
Of ur words n actions taken few days back..
U r not whom i noe n hope for...
Urgh..What e fuck....

2010-02-01T20:58:00.002+08:00

Every single night kept dreaming of u...
Weird,strange,sweet & funny dream...
But what u say yest was very unexpected..
Its really fucking shit dumb hurtful words & qns..
It really sux..Damn sux...
U've change very badly..Sux...
U r not being tanxful nor appreciate it..
Hope u dun be e worst type of girl that i hate..
Which is being a bitch..I hope u dont...
Hate it..Really do...

2010-01-28T22:08:00.003+08:00

Didnt update much often nowadays..
Last sun on e 24th went down to escape theme park..
Wif zai,hirah & sirin..Ouh yea..Lots of fun..
Eventhough few rides were no longer exist,we enjoyed e rest..
We didnt played for too long so decided to leave..
As our stomach is grumbling for food n ease it at WhiteSand MacD.
Sirin left us after dat wif her dad so e 3 of us went over to Imm..
How cool is dat..Furthermore get 2 c someone i miss so much wrkg there..
Reached Imm,went over to her store to find but unable to..How sad..
Didnt gv up,afta walk2,came back to continue searching...
And there she is!!I finally saw her n talk to her!!Woohoo!!Happy gile!!
Previous week saw her & fam at gmbk unexpectedly..Wa..Damn happy!!
But not as happy wen i tried my best to meet u...
But u always came out wif somethg to make it impossible..
Jus didnt appreciate e effort still..How sad is that..
I jus keep on trying...Haiz..

2010-01-16T00:00:00.002+08:00

After suffered in pain for a week...
I gotta noe wat makes me felt so pain for it...
Jus bcoz 'somethg' followed on me...Damn..
Lucky noe of somebody to help me out..
Now i felt glad n believe its gone for good..Alhamdulillah..
D&d coming up soon...Hvnt get myself what i need...
Need u to accompany me but as per normal,u bz..
I didnt get e chance to meet u for long time...Miss u..
Nd to help out coz u noe wats best for me..Haiz..
Now,u stress and im always be ur target victim..Ish..
Its so bored..I wanna be myself back..A v happy-go-lucky guy..
A very happy guy to hv u back..I nd u badly..

2010-01-06T22:18:00.001+08:00

Im suffering in pain...
Like flames keep burning in my whole body..
But where are you dear....:(

2010-01-04T22:34:00.002+08:00

Today was e worst day ever...
Woke up early in e mrng due to e pain..
Intention to remind my fren hand over my mc..
But thgs got worst..Was a total spin in my head..
And guess wat,my temp was already 39.3 degrees..
Feels lyk dying in pain liao..
Lucky my mum was there for me...
Went over for vomit..But instead came out blood..
Dat point of tym,i jus cant take it...
Somehow wish that i wd hv died..Den i wdnt feel pain..
Or any sadness that im going thru in my life..
Tmrw gotta work..Haiz...
See how it goes,if still bad,gotta get mc again..
Im very2 sad dear....

2010-01-03T22:44:00.003+08:00

Happy New year..Happy new year..Well..too late..
Didnt went for any countdown but perhaps a dinner..
Jus to welcome Adi back from Indon..So we ate at breeks.
Before dat,me n suhaili watch Old Dogs..
As we book for breeks n hv so much tym to waste..
Its surely a damn long queue so only get to watch Old Dogs..

Had a really bad fever..Highest i took so far,38.5 degrees..
It jus felt lyk dying,shivering,total in pain.
Ive been controlling it since at work..
My somehow glad i did manage n finish my work proudly.
But cant handle dat much,so went over for clinic afta back from work.
So dat i dun hv to attend work tmrw n get an mc.
But jus a few mins ago,it felt lyk im getting worst.
It felt lyk killing me every second,shattered me into pieces..
If i only noe,den i wish i could hv been dead..
Den those heartache n pain need not to be felt.
It jus so sucks..Sucks big time..

2009-12-22T23:44:00.002+08:00

Congratulations to Teck Chin & Ain Amirah...
For successfully stay strong 3mnths during CIBTC 77th badge..
And now,u both are officially a CI..Haha..
Went over for their POC on 19th Dec at HTA..
Surprisingly,Teck Chin was a baton award winner,congrats.
I still remember wen i train u both from sec 1..
And now,u both took over.Felt honour,proud & OLD.
Yet,both of u need to learn,alot more to go...

Urgh..So bored,so stress,so FUCK up!!
Y is it so hard,wen can i be btrr..
I just wanna be back happy guy...
Happiness dat came from e heart..
FUCK!Enough of lies girl...
A person who u cared most for?Wat a joke..
Sdgkn u dun even appreciate everythg abt ME.

~FUCK~

~Fuck~

2009-12-19T00:29:00.003+08:00

Yest at 18 dec went over to the changi airport..
Main reason to surprise Adi by accompany him b4 his flight..
So e rest of we CI had already plan & surely,Adi felt touch..
Gd frens..Therefore we are there to support..
Not much plan,jus hangout there..Coz all of us is worn out..
Life for me not is kinda boring..Easy to say,aint happy like always..
Somehow i feel happy to be ard wif frens like jus now,laugh & laugh..
But yea,most of us got own life & partner to focus on more..
Kinda realise that im pretending to be ok,even wen im not..
Its so hard...And still yet very hard...Haiz...Pathetic..
Being there still,done my best,but nv been realise.Damn..
Still dun get wat i meant..getting sick thinking over it..
Mayb one day wen im gone,den u realise my presence..................

2009-12-15T23:10:00.003+08:00

Went over to ubin for NPCC camp on 12 & 13th dec..
Was a hot,tiring & fun camp afterall...
Till i got sunburn on my face...Ouch..Damn..
But on e 13th mrng was a shocking moment..
Atiqa came over to my bunk ard 6am to showed me a sms..
Its was a shocked,sad & speechless kinda msg..
Indicating that a junior friend of mine,Afiq & Shafiq met wif an accident.
Worst part,they are gone.Kinda down moment,esp for iqa..
Its was an unexpected moment,but we hv to accept e reality.
What best for me,to pray for both of their soul..
Rest in peace my dear friend..We'll miss u guys for sure..
To all my friends out there,keep urself safe aite..
I dun wanna hear bad thgs happening around again..
Btw,yet i still miss you..Haiz..Damn.
I jus wanna see u,again & again..

2009-12-07T22:13:00.004+08:00

Hey ppl...Im still Alive...
The reason i hvnt been updating my blog due to..
Laziness,tiredness & so call no time..
But heh,now i jus feel lyk updating..
Let me see let me see..Wats interesting to share..??
Ouh,last wed on 2nd Dec get a chance to go St James,Dragonfly.
Sorry,not for clubbing but my workplace event..
A appreciation lunch..Haha..Free delicious food of course..
But jus a short session of lunch..Okay la tu..
I feel sometyms i wasnt being myself..
Im trying to put myself back,being lost..
For example,i get to lose patience easily,and dats not me..
Lately,it felt dat i get in contact well wif u back..I dunno.
It began a strange dream back where u re-appear in my dream..
For no reason,e 'smell' of u at my hse which makes me shock.
Wonder if u r by my side..But i can only wish dat wd happen.
Fully from my heart,i miss u..
I would be there....Waiting.....

2009-11-15T00:06:00.003+08:00

Lyric for my best song & meaning to me..
(Hanya Engkau Yang Mampu)

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Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

C/o-Harusnya takkan ku biarkan kau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

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C/o-Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

Aku cinta ooohhhhhh
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Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku....

2009-11-14T22:38:00.003+08:00

Last sat on 7th Nov 09 had a bday surprise for Is & ayda..
Its v hard to get e plan esp on Is,not to leak any clues to him..
So our plan,surprise him at West Coast Park..So call mini picnic..
Den on 11th Nov 09,such a tragedic night..
Ard 11plus goin midnight,infd by fir ban had a serious accident..
I was lyk speechless upon hearing at work..So shock.
I jus met n talk to him few hrs before i went to work..
Was hit & run by a taxi..Damn asshole u driver..
Next day after work,went home n rush to hosp..
Upon arrival,he went in for operation,wait till evening n its done.
Did cry after went in to look at his condition..
But glad e next day he woke up n much more stable den b4..
Syukur alhamdulillah..Stay strong,kuatkn semangat n dun gv up.
No mttr wat had happen b4,we r still best mate for 9yrs n counting.
All of us wd sure pray n gv e best encouragement to u,bro..
Oh,surprisingly went to visit wif her yest..
Such a joy,excitement upon seeing her..Felt e miss..
But i realise wif dat happiness came sadness...
Even if we met up,thgs doesnt come in our favour..
It feel so sux..No pt being a fren still wen ppl jus want us to be apart.
Ya noe girl,4yrs plus n striving..It dissappoint alot.
Jus had no mood on all dis..Da la get back from a sux mmt at work.
Haiz..........................Wat a life!!

2009-11-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

What a cold night..Hmm..Cool to sleep huh..
Back from meeting my mates earlier to do some stuff..
For no reason my left ankle was in real pain..
Tanx to my lovely dad to urutkn me..Haha..
Tmrw gotta work..Wonder wat will i be doin..
Seems v bz nowadays at work..Crap stuff happening..
My pocket seems v tight at e moment..Urgh..
Cant wait for next wk pay day..Come quick!!
Kinda bored...Jus playing my psp n chat wif her..
I dunno y la..But jus feel lyk chatting wif her..Haiz..
If only it was back den..Prolly u can pinjam my psp eh..
Lots of games dat u always wanted to play..Tkpela..
Nasi da jadi bubur..Tgh nk mkn je..U wdnt b there 4 me agi..
Haiz..I jus ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ and miss you alot dear..Tc..

2009-11-02T23:23:00.003+08:00

Quite a long silence by not updating my blog..
Too tired,lazy plus busy..Dats y..
Lemme see wat i can remember well to share..
I jus had my NPCC unit camp on e 30th-31st Oct..
Initially took 30th off so dat i can assist e camp and had a long leave from friday to sunday..but instead i got a cramp week.
So earlier on fri went over to Bb West to buy 2l of kerosene..
Due to a last min result from OC dat he cant manage to get it..Tanx eh.
Den reach unit,soak e firewood n prepare to start e camp..
But wat a dissappointment wen it rains from afternoon till next mrng..
And for dat,no campfire and my hardwork wasnt paid off..
So had my backup plan having it indoor..Few CI collegues came so as her..Hah!
So sorry dat i was killed in silence wen u was there..Jus a 'fear','sad' moment arise.
I cant wait and happy to see u however 'awkward strange' feeling mingle ard..
Its jus so hard to xplain but e pt is,i felt dat I MISS you,alot.
IF miracle were only to happen dat we are fated back,i'll welcome wif open arm.
Jus a somehow feel stupid but i keep waiting to hv u back.
Didnt get a gd sleep during camp.Was cold,boring n nd to look after e campers..
So we break camp on sat at noon..Back home,get a lil' rest den out again..
To changi beach wif zai to attend my x-ite mate..Feel bad if nv attend.
Tanx zai for e accompany..If not i wd be all alone..
Came to worst part wen sun off was cut due to deployment..
Report at work before 6am on sun but lucky ended at 3pm..
But my legs are like jellyfish now as today work in e mrng shift too..
So i have to get gd rest for next shift tmrw...

2009-10-20T22:47:00.003+08:00

Really i feel so lazy wanna update...
Eventhough i need to post things out..
Where should i start?Hmmm...Wait...
Last sun went over to town with Zai n Hafizh..
Reason,i wanna get myself a crumpler bag...Woohoo..
Got myself a ''2 million dollar home'' bag..Strange name..
Go check it out online..And a smaller version,''1 million dollar home''
for my cuzzin as she request present for her past bday..Haiz..
Nvmla...For my cuzzin,no else...So e same colour jus dat mine bigger,lol.
Ouh ya,not forgetting..Got myself another white lenses...Haha..
Watch out guys,e scary guy will be out again soon...
Yest was a shocking moment...U appeared msn wif me unexpected..
I stood at a pause moment thinking if i should reply..
But i dun wanna be ego so i did reply..My heartbeat were beating fast..
All dis while ive been restraining myself not to communicate in any way wif u..
NOT avoiding u..Jus dat i hv to kinda lil avoiding u..
Reason,wanna put e past n feelings aside..But it didnt succeed n u appeared.
So now,weird feeling start to re-appear & my mind,damn.
Tears start falling if my mind went off to it again..Haiz..
Ya noe,i miss u.Deeply alot.

2009-10-13T00:07:00.002+08:00

One word to say it 1st,tired.
Yest back from mrng shift,rush home,sleep for 3hrs.
Wake up den go to Roslan's wedding wif collegues at Jurong West..
Den proceed to Pasir Ris to house warming of collegue,Obek Ali..
Another house to my boss at Pasir Ris too..
Den proceed to another 2 collegue back at Jurong West..
Superb tired n full afta easting at each location..Lucky got car..
So today,woke up in e aftanoon,rush to proceed to Causeway pt..
Coz i planned for bday surprise of Atiqa n Nasrul...
So i went earlier wif zimah,is,suhaili,jerry to get e present n cake..
We had our dinner at pizza hut,den to RP for cake cutting session..
Happy Bday guy..Once more,there will surely be surprise..
Tmrw gonna start back work,damn..I didnt hv gd rest..
Da la afta work plan to play soccer..Yea..Looking forward to it..
Ouh,to u girl,I miss u alot..But too bad,u didnt appreciate all dis..
U jus dump me away,ur words r jus empty..TY..
Ok den,sayonara.Tc.

2009-10-07T21:26:00.002+08:00

Damn..So tired afta die work tour..
Well,dats work..Kinda stress,fun,challenging all tyms..
So i sleep all e way..Dats wat gonna happen afta work..
Afta dat bgon,cari mkn..Haha..
Ouh,im watching jennifer's body online..Cool..
Hmm..Feels lyk goin jogging in e mrng..Hmm..
Tgk la keadaan mcm mane la ye..
Ouh girl,ive seen all ur photos...
I believe i noe who he is da..gd for u la kn..
Uve been wanting to play n hv it ur way..
U wanna be happy,get in ur way n stuff pe..
Oh,i dun a long hair,always jealous,misunderstand,no diploma..
Hmm..Wat else i miss out?U noe it urself..
Glad u r happy now in e way u choose it..
Oh,i believe in karma,wat goes ard comes ard..
I dun hv to be cruel to hurt u way u did to me back..
I redha n tabah dgn bagaimana u make on me..
Coz god noes how i feel,hope it doesnt happen worst to u..
N i really hope u doesnt fall to a category type of girl which
i hate most by being flirty n such..It wdnt b gd if i name e type..

2009-10-04T22:47:00.004+08:00

Hey...Go beraya to my cuzzin hse at sembawang..
Da la sesat..Ade miscommunication of blk number..
Finally arrive..So most of my mum's side dtg...
Ape lagi,ade mkn2,kecoh2 n of coz took pictures..Haha..
Den afta dat my cuzzin want to proceed to my bibik hse..
Get hungry again so my uncle ajak mkn at gmbk..
But too bad,i go 1st to change to my home clothes..
Tk best pakaian nice2 den mkn,worry get dirty je..
Den my uncle proceed to my hse..Done..
So tire right now..gotta go work early tmrw..
Now i get stress to plan for few upcoming events..Haiz..
Ouh yea..It seems dat i cant get over u at all..
Too many thgs dat reminds me..Semakin nk lupe,smakin ingat..
Smakin nk benci,smakin rindu..But i hate e way it its..
U tattooed on my heart & now u make a scar over it..
Such a dissappointment on e way u r..yet u tk sedar..
E song on my profile reflect on me,alot.

2009-10-03T22:01:00.002+08:00

Came back from work dis mrng...Tired,sleepy.
But had fun at work,da mcm ade party gitu..
2 of my colleagues blanje too order pizza delivery..
Ordered from Sarpino's & Pizza DeFrance..Total 7 large.
As 1 for bday treat,another 1 for ORD..Damn u..
Now our team getting less of u guys..Miss u guys..
So initially wanna go out today..Go town or wateva..
But nobody is free or wd like to go ot..Haiz..Damn..
So e only choice,sleep.There goes one of my off days..
Tmrw den wd go beraya at my cuzzin hse..Wif rest of family..
Hope it wd be a great tym..Hmm...
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Yea im trying my best to leave u for gd..
Ive change my email password,u shd noe y.
I noe,u looking for much more of handsome guy,
rambut pnjg,tinggi,ade diploma wif u,ape lagi?
Coz dat all lack in me kn?Afta so long trying to get u..
Yet u fall for someone else so easily...Damn..
Lantak uh,k perna bersyukur kn?So be it...
Asalkn u bahagia n jgn satu hari kamu yg kena..
Ouh,1 reminder,tink wat uve done,tink wat kind of person u r.
Gasak la ye..Chao.

2009-10-01T23:21:00.004+08:00

Today get back to work afta my leave..great..
I can say wat a gd tour for today's work man...
Tmrw?I dunno..Hopefully same duty..Haha..
End work alight to gmbk to buy food at do&me..
Been craving for it..Met Fir to jln2 at psr mlm there..
Pasar mlm is so dull each tym..Best nye stakat mkn..
Den proceed home,settle down n stuff n here am i..
Bleargh..Im so bored right now..Mcm still confuse mode..
I dun understand e situation now..Haiz..
Yest night was cool,wat a small world indeed huh..
Now my brain is dead n shutting down for gd rest soon..
Well..Take Care ppl..Miss ya'll....

2009-09-30T22:39:00.003+08:00

Today was bored..Rotting myself on my bed..
Movie marathon n singing via youtube aje..
Reason tk jadi klua gi town and tk jadi gi jogging..
So bored n get hungry all e tym..Haiz...
Afta solat magrib,receive a call,my neighbour blk jump down..
So wen down to see,police n cd was there to cover n protect..
Get to noe,it was my datuk nye sdare side..So my dad came as well..
Wat a sad story..Ye la,he's old n get senile..Innalillah..
But wat a long wait,ard 11 tadi baru la mayat tu diangkat..
Yea tmrw work,afta quite a long break..Haha..
Wondering wat will i be doing next?Hmmm...............
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Ya noe,i guess i make it all over...
Eventhough i didnt get a peace out of my mind yet..
Wat to do,some ppl nv feel thankful n appreciate..
If they do,they will prove it.Not by leaving it away..
Kn senang,use ppl for happiness,da puas n jelak,buang..
Mcm la si tissue tu kn..Yea..Im not a perfect guy..
Aint handsome,tall,blaja kat poly,kaya raya...
Tapi tkpela kn,i nv regret,ive done my best & ikhlas..
Now u fall for ur sch fren so be it..Ur choice kn..
U nv understand wats beneath my heart..U nv try..
Tkpelakn,if ade jodoh di mane2,sape2 so be it..
As long she accept who i m,understand,trust..
So to you girl,THANKS ALOT..I nd 2 forget u...
U shd b happy in dat way huh..TC,Gdbye..

2009-09-29T23:06:00.003+08:00

Been a long-long tym didnt update seh... So lazy n no mood to upload all e tym..Bleargh.. Well..Selamat Hari Raya to all rockers fren out there.. Maaf Zahir & Batin andainya hamba seorang insan yg tk lepas dari kesilapan..
Let me see..Wat ive miss out so far?Hmmm... 1st day raya wearing blue..Lyk e pic there.. Tu pon 1st day rushing nye raya..Ye la..work on e eve,pagi solat raya den gi rumah nenek den alik gi keje..haiz..Kesian..
Gi beraya to sdare hse pon tk byk..Furthest is johor la.. Yest jln beraya wif CI colleagues..Inc 2 chinese,jerry & chris.. Lyk a world peace day which most of us wearing white,inc me..
But i was lyk e pengantin & e only one wif songkok.. Ye la,wd feel incomplete wif it..Kn baru pakaian tradisi.. Will continue wif jln raya..Hmm...................
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''Smile on the outside,hurt on the inside'' Dats how ive been so far..Afta u left.. Been trying to make my heart n mind free w/o u in it.. But result is..FAIL..Such a failure.. Saying 'I love you' wdnt be e truth w/o showing e effort,actions needed.. But wd i get wif all dat?A Gdbye n Im sorry..Tu je.. Uve been there for me but u nv try to understand wat i meant.. Nobody understand wats beneath my heart.. Even if u say u appreciate?It makes me wonder.. Bleargh..Y is it so hard??Haiz..Such a cruel moment for me..

2009-09-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

Its been a long-long tym to update..
Well ppl,Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin..

2009-09-13T22:02:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile dat i nv update...Lol...
Been such a irritating tiring lazy week man..
Last wk sat,wen out to buka wif CI's collegue..
Went over to Mac Jack at Bt Timah to break our fast..
Den decided to proceed to geylang coz we split to two cars..
Tanx to jerry n hannan for being our driver...Haha..
Den lepak at atiqa hse for ahile,proceed back home..
Now two of my off days is burn..Tanx for e inservice..Damn..
Next week gonna be Hari Raya..Woohoo..
Cant wait for those delicious food,wear new baju kurung n stuff..
But kena work on Hari Raya night shift itself..
Well..Ape blh buat..Dats work,but got my turn next wkend..heh.
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Ya noe,i cant my eyes,my mind,my heart off you..
Its so damn freaking irritating ya noe..
Wat so special abt u dat im feeling dis way??
Even it did remember ask u dis..
"Y cant u say u prefer him?Let her go n dun bother anymore?''
But u say,dats not from ur heart n ur mind?
R u serious?or r u kidding me?
U say,''If we r meant back together,den we wd.''
Oh well..Wat an ans..But its a frustrating one..
Bleargh..Im so stress abt it..........................................................

2009-09-02T14:18:00.003+08:00

Hope u r reading this.....
Till now,i didnt get ur pt,ur motive..
Well,gd u noe my motive to noe ur reason for all dis..
The only reason u had is ''its personal''??
Wat is so personal of jus need to ans a 'yes' or 'no'??
C'mon,how long & how far u nd to hide?
How long & how far u nd to act?
How long & how far u nd to lie?
How long & how far u nd to be a heartless ego?
Dis is so not u dat i noe or could ever expect..
Well,even if u say 'yes',i wdnt be a prob 4 me to be hurt..
Perhaps im glad u can be honest to me & urself..
If u say 'no',it really makes me wonder...
Wonder of how i could trust u for all dis while..
Frankly,u make me lost the way i use to be..
A fake smile dat is put up each day..
U make me shattered into pieces..
Making me a hard tym to put myself back..
Till now,im waiting for ur ans..Thkg,remembering u always..
I miss loving u so much..I miss those moments & dreams..
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Every night I pray, I'll have you here someday.
I'll count the stars tonight, and hope with all my might.
That when I close my eyes, you'll be right by my side.
If I could only have one wish you'd be the girl whose lips I'd kiss
All my only dreams.
And when I close my eyes, you'll be right by my side.
If I could have just one request, stay with me girl I confess.
All my only dreams.
Any waking hour it seems, I only have you in my dreams
So every night I pray, I'll have you here one day.
I'll count the stars tonight, and hope with all my might.
That when I close my eyes, you'll be right by my side.
If I could have just one request, stay with me girl I confess.
All my only dreams.

2009-08-31T16:43:00.003+08:00

Yest work kinda smooth yet im very2 sleepy..
Late in e aftanoon went to IMH to refer a JC student..
Pity for him,he study too much till his wire get loose..
Although his roots were rich n smart,yet spoil i can say..
Pity for me,i only had milo n prawn cracker for my break-fast.
As we hv been there for like 3hrs..Oh damn..
So tonight any round of e tour for me..Yea..

So,earlier i had a bad dream,again..
Well,seriously,i kp on thinking n remembering her..
Yes,i cant forget or kinda forgive her till now..
Many many thgs wd reminds me of her,damn.
Talking abt my dream,its feels like coming for real..
In it,she prefer another guy or indeed totally in love.
Well,i did ask her nicely for an ans..Yet she refuse to ans.
I dunno how long n how much more u nd to hide n lie.
Look at u,totally ignore me.Dis is wat u promise?Us friends?
Now,i jus had a simple life,nothg much interesting..
Rest,work,rest,work?Tu je.Unless there is ppl wish to b out wif me..
Jus look at my hp,it reminds alot of you,girl.
U had e reason y i hv dat fone,dat line,dat plan..
Main reason,24hrs call u for free,thousand of free smses..
Well,wif e plan line wat advantage do i hv now?No pt kn?
But look at u,how hv u been?Wonderfully happy isnt it?
Coz who cares abt me?U?Such a laughter.
Till now,im asking myself,y cant u get rid of my mind n heart?
I wd rather lie to ppl dat u r totally gone for me,but e fact,no.
But Y do i hv to kp thinking,remembering & waiting for me?
Am i such a stupid damn bloody fucking loser??
A smile on my face wd jus b fake,temporary,but rather a deep cut within.
I jus cant find e peaceful happiest moment like i had before..
Well...Dats my life.Hope u r satisfied on wat u did.

2009-08-30T00:14:00.006+08:00

Its been quite a moment didnt update..
Well..On 29th Aug,Sat,meet up wif old sec mates..
As usual,e only 7 wd turn up,yg lain,haiz..Hard to say..
Reason 3 of em goin ns army real soon..Gd luck guys..
So we went to break fast at Seoul Garden at Bugis..
Ate till u cant feed anymore thing in our mouth...
Afta dat we decided to go for bowling at Bukit Batok..
But only 5 ppl playing..Well,im e champ 4 e two games played.
Once enjoyed,was den in e mrng so have to get back home..
Just now 30th,went to Geylang wif my parents..
As an expected sat,it was crowded wif ppl...
Esp to u mats & minah yg buat menyemak pat situ..
Nta puasa ke tk korg..Main jauh2 sudah la..
Get myself new songkok,jln2 n procees back home..
Ouh ya,izwan help me to take my award..
It was a gift from former sec sch afta serving 3yrs as a CI there..
I really love it,look at it.So beautiful!!Weewiit!!

2009-08-21T23:54:00.003+08:00

Back from bday celebration at kak ani's hse..
Celebrate wif 3 August kids,myself,wirda n ryan..
So we ate various food that was serve on the table..
Den there comes our bday cake..Woohoo..Swensen!!
Thanks to cuzzin wirda who nk swensen cake sangat..
Cnfrm la kecoh kn wen all family comes together..
Den i got my wonderful present..Guess wat?
Two tee from cotton on & a watch of casio gshock!!
Its been my aim to get dat watch?How happy am i..
Thank you kak lydia and abg jamal..Woohoo!!!
Got cash as well la..Well..Im v happy..
Dats all for now...Tc..

2009-08-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

2009-08-21T23:51:00.002+08:00

2009-08-21T23:20:00.002+08:00

2009-08-21T00:25:00.003+08:00

Firstly..My Bday have jus past..Woohoo..
Im lyk finally tua,legal & get the independent key..
Gotta very busy day at work..real busy man..
So wen back home,get a gd sleep as hv plan in e evening..
Wake up in e aftanoon,receive a sms,call which changes my mood..
Tmrw is my 2nd off,so im celebrating wif my another 2 cuzzin n family..
However,my boss selected me to go for a training from 0830-1800..
I told her i cant go due to e plan but she jus dun understand..
Can even say ''u hv to go,u can celebrate another tym''..
Ya right man..Wat if it happen to u?U only tink of ur ugly ass..
U r such a @$#%$^&@*#!!!I'll remember dis man..
I refuse to go,so she force another guy..Go & die..
So met Atiqa & Adi at West Mall in e evening..
Only told by Atiqa dat only e two of em..So ok lor..
We jln2 for awhile,den pass by PastaMania..Guess wat..
There is Hazimah,Suhaili,Iskandar,Nasrul & his girlfriend..
Den came Syahid & Alus..I MISS U GUYS MAN!!!!
So we ate there,den shift to another place for anither surprise..
Iqa plan to act she went home,tibe2 came wif a lighted bday cake..
Ouhman..Its Polar Nutella cake..Damn Chocolatey Awesome..
Got a Puma tee as well..Woohoo..Love it..
U guys really rock n cheer up my day..Appreciate it,im touched.
Ya noe,i didnt get to celebrate wif her,anymore..
She even wish me late,unlike usual.Well,im gone for her..
And thanks to all rockers who wishes me too..Tanx!!

2009-08-20T23:58:00.001+08:00

Firstly...MY BDAY IS TODAY 20th Aug..
Happy 21st bday la kn...Da tua,legal & independent key kape..
And thanks to all the ppl who wishes me..
Damn tired afta a busy tym at work..Really busy..
So get back home,get a gd sleep coz got a plan in e evening..
But wen i woke up in e aftanoon,my mood changes..
Thanks to my boss for ruining my bday mood..
U r jus a @!$%@^$^&$%!!
I nd to celebrate wif my another two cuzzin tmrw..
But yet,she chooses me n pkse to go a training from 0830-1800..
The worst part is wen she say ''U nd to go,u can celebrate next tym''..
What the fuck..Wat if its ur day den??Damn it..I'll remember dis ma'am..
Yet,i refuses to go n she pkse someone else..Go & die..
So in the evening met Atiqa n Adi..Only 2 of em as wat Atiqa say..
So reaches West Mall,jln2 n came pass PastaMania..
There was like Hazimah,Suhaili,Iskandar,Nasrul & his girlfren..
Then came Syahid wif Alus..Again i got trick surprises..
So we ate there,den shift to somewhere else w

2009-08-17T15:36:00.003+08:00

Im superbly super tired right now...
Yest mrng,back from work,went out..
Go sentosa wif zai,hirah,musyi..my x colleagues..
Jus hang out there,jln2,took many2 pictures of course..
Had fun,get to ease out ur brain wif all e probs in it..
Didnt chill out for long,as each of us got somethg on next..
So i went to my cuzzin hse for cukur rambut..
Jus to show face,met my parents den proceed to bibik hse..
My bibik shift hse to bt gmbk,v near to her hse seh..
Help angkat brg sikit2,lyn my lil cuzin yg dun let me go...
Den wen back home ard 11pm..Wow...Super tired n sleepy..
Afta ur 12hrs work den klua till dat tym..Cant take it..
Oh..My bday coming soon beb..Turning v legal..Haha..
Wat i wish?Hmm..I dunno..Hv certain thgs in my mind..
But i guess i wd get it by myself..Hmm..takes time lor..
I jus wish i could be a happy guy n everythg goes smoothly in my life..
Unless i could only wish to have her back?Dun tink it will happen..
I still miss her..if only i could celebrate wif her..
Bygone be bygone..Well..Its life..
Can someone massage for me?????

2009-08-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

Blogger still sux man..Aiyo..
Till now i keep thinking n figuring out my dream..
I dunno if it might turn out to be true..
There is just three weird/strange dream..
All this happen on the same night?
Will it come true?Wat if all three came true?
I wish i could noe all e meaning..Ish..
Im still very tired afta my work..
Tmrw my off day gonna be burn,again..
Damn,kena deploy again 4 some event..
Da la cant take leave on sat..Fuck..Unfair..
Wanna take leave oso a hard tym?
Den wat for we r given leave?Damn u..
Yea..My bday is next wk..Woohoo..
Cant wait..Officially v v legal..Lol..
Wat i wish to hv eh?Hmm..Wdnt b dat easy man..

2009-08-11T16:45:00.000+08:00

Blogger still having its ugly period..Damn..
Last wk hv not been a gd week for me..
Thgs were screw up n getting me on my nerve..
Den sun was NDP..Gotta duty for sure...Haiz..
Was a superb tiring..Esp handling stubborn & stink foreigners!
But e food provided wd nv dissappoint us..Woohoo..
Den e next day as per normal marng shift..
Punye la penat n restless...Ish..
Last night i had a strange,weird dream..
A dream if possible i wanna noe wat it means n truth..
Dunno who i can share it with..Or mayb kp it to myself..
However..Deep in me i still miss her..Real badly..
Been standing for her 4yrs back,doing my best..
But unfortunately she jus see it through me,without realising me there..
Well...Dats life..

2009-08-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

Blogger got its menses at the moment..Sucks..
Cant upload picture or font colour..
But nevermind..Still update den..
Last sat my off day is burn..Due to NDP Preview..
So kena deployment at marina la kn..
But my duty was so damn cool..Relax beb..
Was really cool wen my team wen over to fullerton hotel.
SO manage to access to e rooftop of it.Cool!!
So ape agi..Snap2 picture la..When u got e chance again?
But too bad i cant upload the picture..
E get to c e best view of marina,esplanade,raffles,etc..
N e deployment can make us fat officers..
Kfc,pizza hut,brownie n many great food..Ish..
But was a long tiring day..next day work..
Next sun wd b actual national day,another duty of coz..
Tmrw my off will b burn,again..
Got training at OPA..Damn it man..Aiyo..
Its so freaking tired man.Give me a break!Urgh..
Well..No choice..Dats my jobscope..
Anyway..I still miss her..Alot..^haiz^...

2009-07-30T15:11:00.005+08:00

E past Tues on 28th July went for a movie..
Decided to watch "Jgn Pandang Belakang Congkak"..
At first bot sure if there's such a movie title..
As e title came for the past two malay horror movie..
So i went to WM and watch wif Zai..
Lucky Zai wanna go eventhough he shifted to wdlands & watch twice..
But too bad..Org da blanje cnfrm gi nye..Haha..
It was an interesting movie..A comedy i can say..Not horror..
If given a chance,i wd wanna watch again..Lol..

Another part is..Woohoo..Look at my jersey..
A new player for Liverpool..Haha..Prasan..
Ordered e jersey at from someone at workplace..
Its v cheap cheap..Wif ur name n number u want..
So if interested let me know..Haha..

2009-07-26T01:24:00.011+08:00

Ok...Next is abt NDP preview..Woohoo...
I did go for it earlier on 25th july 09...
Since my plan for her destroyed,my fren gv me free 2 tickets..
Bcoz she involve in it..So yea..Tanx alot Zimah!!
It really helps alot to kill my anger n boredom..
So i went there wif Fir..Since no one else's available..
E show was exciting..U noe..Much advance in technology..
It start off with a dry thg,den wen those funny hoses took over,cool..
E red lion was awesome..Wish i could parachute like em..Dare devil u guys..
Then theres a 'marina wave' challenge wif a bike racer to see who's faster..
Yes e biker faster,yet he skid at the end..Omg..Tu la jgn rempit2..Degil..
Believe he nv die..Lucky him..Try harder man..
Goodie bag was ok la...Biase2 aje..
Not forgetting,e most awesome firework..It nv fail to make ppl feel excited & enjoy..
Afta all e show,yea..It was a big mass of ppl outside..Sesak beb!!
But yea..I do enjoy it..Tanx Zimah..Here's few pics i snap there..

2009-07-26T00:55:00.004+08:00

25th of July..It suppose to be the day..
A day to celebrate her belated bday..
Ive plan for cable car ride,songs of e sea,hv fun in sentosa,swensen..
Plus another two more surprise gift for her..
Although bought 4 her crumpler lappy bag n cap b4 hand..
But all my effort doesnt paid off...
Two days before i asked her n finally she say 'cant make it'..
Haiz..Blood boiled up,frustrating n dissappoint..
Jus bcoz she hv her cca rehearsal for next day event..
Ye la..Ape blh buat kn..All of it wd jus b a waste..
U make a scar in my heart..but u dun realise of appreciate thgs..
Well..He some pictures that i gave her..Some didnt get to snap..

2009-07-25T00:06:00.003+08:00

Hey hey..Finally blog back to its normal life..
Went to batam earlier of e day..
1st tym yaw..Go wif family n cuzzins naik ferry...
As u noe,v confusing currency of country..
Beribu-ribu-ribuan rupiah..Msm blh beli condo.
Once there,took taxi to Ngagoya Hill Mall..
Believe me,e taxi is well modified lyk a racer car..
Yet,its a scary journey,no traffic lights or proper border line..
Jus like in M'sia,u wd c ppl riding bike without helmet,3ppl..
Its jus like 'sape cepat die dapat on e rd' & payment wise,anyhow.
Once reach,we eat at A&W..Woohoo..Afta a long2 tym..
Den go shopping2,eat again at a restaurant nearby..
E restaurant,kinda nasi padang where it serve all dishes on ur table..
So our table is filled up wif all dishes till it hv to b stack..
Ish..Ni nk mkn ke,lantak ke,kasi org mati tercekik??
We only pay on e dishes dat we 'touched'..
Den proceed to another Mega Mall..Mega yet a dull mall je..
Afta all e shopping i bought 2 tee n a perfume..
2 tee for abt $11 and $12++..And the perfume is...
My fav escada again..Believe me,$6 only..Original ok..
Damn dheap,spore wd b 8-10times more seh..
Afta dat,went back home..Wat an experience..Lol..
~U really dissappoint me...
25th suppose to b e day we celebrate ur bday..
But u wdnt make it..Afta all e hardwork plan n such..
My effort jus doesnt paid off by you..~

2009-07-22T13:27:00.001+08:00

To My Dearest Bday Girl,

A Very Happy Sweet Birthday To You..Finally a year older & to be a much more matured ,responsible person..You have been a wonderful person in my life..Someone that would be there for my laughter & sadness..U shine on me & make me learn wonderful & also sorrow part in life..I would for sure be glad & happy if im able to bring a sweet smile out of you..I stayed up for today,feeling very excited but i need to get my tears down my cheeks..If only our love story never end..How i wish to be there with u at this moment..Hope u enjoy your day and gifts..Be a wonderful person that people want out of you..All the best in life & take good care of yourself always..I Miss You,Dear..

2009-07-22T13:03:00.002+08:00

2009-07-22T00:25:00.002+08:00

Well..I stay up till now although jus back home from work..
Bcoz im v excited..It her bday..
So i act rush to msg n called her to wish..
But hey..She had someone else to cheer wif..
C'mon la faizal..Wake up man,wake up!
Y wd i jus waste me tym if ppl dun appreciate..
Well,i jus do my best,didnt really expect any returns..
Im dissappointed in her..Really alot..
Anyway...What a tiring deployment work today..
Kinda fuck up i can say..Well,its life..
Lucky ltr no nd to join again..
Nd to go bedok,get a flu vaccine injection..
Dats for now,take care..

2009-07-19T23:14:00.004+08:00

Its been awhile didnt update..Bz yaw..
Let me c...Hmm...thurs...
Ouhya..My bibik bday on dat day...
So afta in-service day at work,meet up wif cuzin..
Den we both get a cake den went over bibik hse..
Happy Bday my bibik..All e best wif ur 3 kids..
But den i 4get my cuzin bday hv past..
So she claim a crumpler bag den..Ok cuzin..
Skip to sat..Attend to my fren's bday party..
E bday cake was super big n nice..
But didnt get to taste,gotta leave..
Den afta dat prepared to go to work..
Wow...super tired..n super stretch at work...
Gotta attend a function afta work..But unable to go..Sorry..
Ouh ya,my psp finally modified..Not 100% though..
However,no nd to use umd anymore..can play thru memory card..
Woohoo...Great games in it..Love it..
Well..Sad thg is..U hate e way i m..Haiz..
Mayb u shd hate me..U r jus not who u r..
Im yet v dissappointed...

2009-07-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile didnt update..Bz yaw..

2009-07-15T10:44:00.003+08:00

Back from work..very2 damn tired..
Lots of stuff done..What a night..
Mo mood for work..No mood for anythg act..
My mind wd keep fill up abt you..Dunno y..
Jus abt u,wat u've done all along..
Y cant it jus fade off?Y is it so diff?
Or shd i jus make myself think dat i dunno u?
I shdnt b dat bad rite?Or wd i b cruel to hate u?
Till now im v dissappointed in u..
You hv jus misused e trust i hv 4 u..U ruin everythg..
So do i still get e blame to assume u many thgs all e while?
Even if not true but am i still to b blame?
Until u hv to treat me dis way?
Dump lyk a shit toy?Dats how u repay ppls effort?
U hv really played me well..Not once..
I jus hope u wd behave lyk a bitch,dun nd u 2 b 1..I wd hate.
Im jus speechless,no pt in everythg & gv up..
Hope u r happy now..But do reflect on urself..
I hope u wd b treated how u treat me badly..
Wat goes ard comes ard..I hope u r reading it.
Well..Look at this video plz..Understand it..

2009-07-12T13:06:00.003+08:00

Yest back from work afta a night shift...
So didnt get to sleep whole day...
Afta work get ready to be out wif her..
Yes,finally get to be out wif her..
Obviously im v excited n look forward to it.
Reason,getting her bday present..In advance.
So bought for her Crumpler lappy bag..Dats wat she wants.
I dun care for the price,it might be expensive..
But its for her and for her bday present.
But already got another thg 4 her & my surprise plan.
The hooraay feeling is dat..Kp looking in her eyes.
I jus miz her alot..E way it shd b..
Den she hv to leave by 6,attending a malay concert wif her fren..
Well,ok..Glad enuf to b out wif her..
But get to noe she was home v late as it ends late.
But wat i got to noe hurts alot.Truth do hurt.Lies worst.
Some1 else send her home,initially was a 3rd party.
Afta all along,she wd still lie & hurt me?Again?
Wat is dis??She already decided to leave e way it is back b4..
Reason i assume her hvg 3rd party n such..
But isnt it e fact?She dump me n get interested in someone else?
So wat do i did wrong?Y hv to b treated dis way?
Im feeling so fuck up rite now..Jus lyk wanna blow thgs up!
Argh!!Damn!!Im such a loser...
I dun hv to kp e surprise for 25th,u noe it now.
So u happy wif it dat u noe it now?
U jus ruin it urself!Wat shit u wanna maintain frenshp?!
Wen even u make thgs happen dis way,ruining it urself!
Damn!Im jus so stupid n fucked up..

2009-07-09T22:27:00.003+08:00

Not an interesting day today..
Gotta work wif body ache n restless..
Doin thgs im not gd yet or perhaps dun relly like..
Sitting down infront of e comp n alots of calling..
Bleargh..Perhaps need more time on it...
So for now gotta be on standby for activation..Haiz..
Im in confusion,stress,anger,hurt..
Its jus v hard me to get over it..
Yet,till now,u always on my mind n my heart..
Feeling of love,amiss,anger towards u..
Am i a sucker or loser afta wat had happened??
Afta being left entagled by you?
Is dat wat i get from u?Afta all along?
Yet till now i didnt gv up on u..
Still fighting for e best for u..
But am i appreciated or treasured?
Y wd i be jealous?Angry?Or even bother abt u?
U wd c it in urself..Think over it wat we chat..
Or bttr still u wd noe e ans..
But am i stupid or blind??
Or am i just lyk a toy to you??
I may have a smile on my face,but ache in the heart..
How i wish everythg wd b fine..
Its jus to hard to swallow..It hurts..Alot..
U make a memorable mark in my life...

2009-07-08T23:33:00.003+08:00

Hey hey hey..look at it..
Jus change to a new blogskin..
Get bored n jus feel lyk changing..
To a bigger page n not dat girly anymore aite..
So here it is...Taadaa...
Anyway..Im feeling damn tired..
My thigh n back ache man..
Yest night go jogging wif fir n ban to cck n back..
Suppose to off today but was called back..
Bein selected to get deployed wif other div n dept..
Due to h1n1..N it wd b at selarang if it wd b activated..
Can u believe it..was at changi there..Damn far..
Hopefully it wasnt activated..*Crossing finger*..
So initially went 4 briefing at bedok npc den proceed
to selarang fore familiarization tour..
Went back afta dat but decided to get her somethg 1st..
So got her a present already...
but dats wat i wanna get 4 her..Not wat she want yet..
But...Again..I dunno if e day of my plan wd come..
So let u decide..Dun wanna quarrel over it again..Worthless..
Haiz..Damn..Tmrw gotta work mrng shift..
Gotta run now..Take care ppl..;)

2009-07-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

A very tiring n cold day...
Back from work..V shagged man...
Got to do filing an stuff....
Tmrw wd b another shift...Haiz..
And guess wat..My OC inform me..
I wd b attach to selarang prison from 9th july onward..
Dunno till wen..Go briefing at bedok on wed..
Damn..So far seh..Attach at changi..
But gonna b an experience thg somehow..
So now jus stood infront of my lappy..
Here i am nserving e net...
Ouh yea..Enjoy dis cool video by my idol..

2009-07-05T23:08:00.002+08:00

2009-07-04T23:17:00.002+08:00

Jus got home jus now...Went out wif fir..
We went to bugis..Since he wanna watch transformer2..
So my 2nd tym watchin yo..
Jln2 at bugis afta a long tym didnt went there...
So we went to e new shopping centre...
Was huge but i can say it kinda dead..
Got 'filmgarde' cinema..But now fast food..Nor halal food..
Believe it or not...C lots of cops around at bugis..
Decided to went to bugis st for awhile afta movie..
So we was crossing across e traffic lite wen i saw a 'mini drama'...
There were to 'ahlian bitches' exchanging punches n kicks..
Believe to be own fren as another fren trying to stop em..
It was jus outside burger king & ljs there...
Then there were other crowds like those mats&minahs..
But they jus stood there,watching..
So i told fir not to bother n dun get involve..Afta all im a cop...
But e drama was like so damn stupid.."Get a life or Die You AhLian Bitches!"..
So we went home afta dat..Grab mcchicken n nuggets home..Yea..
Need gd rest..Work again tmrw..Haiz..
Had a quarrel wif her yest nite..
So damn lame stupid shit..Not worthit..
Jus over a date dat i wanna go out wif her..
Its not for me but her,herself...
Its really dissappointing & hurtful...
Y cant jus u understand n realise...
Y cant u b appreciative wen i did my best for you..
Well..U always wanna win n make me shut up..
So u jus decide den..If tknk bttr say so..
It will be thank enough..

2009-07-04T00:30:00.003+08:00

Hey...Its so late at night now..
To be exact its already sat now...Haha..
Jus woke up from my deep slepp since 3pm...wow..
C0z i jus got home dis mrng afta a night shift yest...
Was so damn tiring seh...Dun like my deployment for e day..
Got to run up n down everytym,do lots of filing..Damn..
Wat to do,everyday is a new thg to learn..
Silence afta u done best,lots of scolding if u did wrong..
Dats wat we often get huh...it sucks..
Wanna go out jus now aftanoon...
But ajak HER,keje,nk go home straight...
Ajak zai n hirah,it cancel out last min...
Haiz...So bored..In e end k.o. on my bed...
But now im awake..Still v sleepy n tired somehow..
Coz i feel v hungry n bored...Wanna chat wif HER...
Tmrw...I mean ltr..I dunno...
If got any plans and feel lyk going out or not..
Well...Everyday i really hope from u...
Dat u can make it happen on 25th..

2009-07-01T23:09:00.003+08:00

Back from work mrng shift yaw..
So it was damn tiring as usual...
Another new thg to learn n adopt wif every single day..
Believe it or not,its nv easy wrkg in a force...
But weird huh..Ppl keep talking afta MJ's Death..
Put up a tribute,dis n dat all over media..
Wat do these ppl do wen he's still alive?
They wd rather ignore,criticise,discriminate him?
Unless those true fans still support him..
But wen he's gone..Ppl wd den realise his presence..
U ppl jus take him for granted..
Well..No mttr wat,u r a great icon MJ..Always..
Back from work go gmbk eat wif parents..
Wanna pay bill but damn shit...AXS/SAMs machine got a long q..
Wat do u xpect...GST shares is in..
So ppl wd rush to pay bill n dat..Haha..
Afta dat wen home so here i am stuck on e comp..
Wat to do...I miss someone's sweet voice..
But thgs r not e same as before..
~Dear god,the only thing i ask of you,
Is to hold her wen im not around,
When im much too far away..~
Hopefully wat i planned for her wd succeed..I hope...

2009-06-30T14:45:00.002+08:00

Hello readers,viewers,bloggers,ppl...
I jus woke up...Damn tired..My off day..
My mum's out...To tired to follow her..
Went to my bibik's hse yest..
So i get to c my new cuzzin in my family..Haha..
Initially i was e only grandson,but finally got another 1 now..
His name cool yaw..'Aniq Rifqi'...Yea..Welcome to life boy..
So here i am on my blog..
Jus upload pic n song to it...
Tanx heerah for the help yaw..Haha..
So im gonna rot at home today..
Wat to do...Lazy + tired + no plan...
Ouh yea...July's coming...
Gonna get my another GST Share..Woohoo..
And yea...Bday plan for 'her'..N bday gift for heerah..
Hillgrove speech day n STC gonna posponed..
So my award wd b posponed as well..
Its all due to dat stupid swine flu..
Dats all for now..Take Care..

2009-06-30T14:34:00.001+08:00

2009-06-29T11:29:00.003+08:00

Mrng...Back from work yo...
Obviously damn tiring after a 12hr long shift..
Had to run ard here n there...
Met alot of weird n funny ppl..
Not ppl but incident dat happen ard..
But i had a pull-over while wrkg..
I dunno y but my heart/chest feel cramp out of sudden..
Hopefully i wd b alright..Dun wanna b lyk my fav MJ..
Then got intact wif this 'serious' guy..
He's infected wif somethg that i cant share openly here..
And i jus pray hard that i wd be fine to..Amin..
Got to get gd rest now..
Most likely visit my new lil' cuzin at aunt hse ltr aftanoon..
Hv a gd day ahead ppl..Take Care..;)

2009-06-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

Hey..Im back..
Jus wanna write somethg diff..
Abt a girl which gv e greatest impact in my life..
Or i can say i love n cherish her most..

E chemistry happen during Malay Drama Compt 05'.
There's a nick for me n for her during e day dat we'll remember till now..
It was back then so we've been v close for 4yrs plus..
I dunno y but its jus somethg diff in her dat im looking for..
Even though we r not at e same age..
Dat doesnt mttr coz its fate...
So it kinda a war battle for me to win over her..
But well,i appreciate her presence..

She's jus like a musical sunshine & pillow to me..
She make me realise e world..
Experience new thgs n help me change to a bttr person..
She's there during my ups & down..
Sometym pity her to get scold at for no reason..Lol!
Whateva thg dat happen,we wd share thgs out..
Spend tym & sacrifices for each other..
Jus like normal ppl wd do..

Its been a damn 4yrs plus since ive known her..
Even my family,cuz esp my mum..
She has work wif me n my mum before yea..
So my mum admit dat she likes her..
Even till now ask abt her n say she's pretty..
Glad if she wd hv her..

But all my dreams n hopes have shattered recently..
I really dunno y but my mind makes me freak out..
She's decided that we hv to get own path in life for now..
But somethgs r jus meant to be that way..
Theres a start n its end..
My mind act not at peace till now..
But i hv to ease it out somehow..

Thgs r jus meant to be memory in mind & heart now..
I cant hear the sweet fairy voice..
Nor i can see that sweet fairy again..
It jus turn out dark again..Haiz..
Her bday coming soon,somehow i hv a surprise plan for her..
But its all up to her approval to celebrate wif me or not..
Or mayb she wd dissappear away..I dont know..
How i wish she wd understand how i feel now..
I jus miss her damn alot dat u can nv imagine..
I wd jus be there..Waiting..
I Love You Dear..

2009-06-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

Hello..Peace to be upon u...
Well..Jus get back from work..
It was fun yet very tiring day..
But everyday is a new thg to learn & experience..
Today was my 1st tym step into IMH..Haha..
Not me as a patient but sending other ppl..
But nothg much to experience..
So didnt get to see 'wild' ppl ard as imagine....
Somewhere safe i believe..
So...tmrw will be another shift..
Now tym for me to chill n recharge energy..
Keep u guys update again,tc.

2009-06-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

Hey..Jus wanna write lil' post...
Had fun jus now watching Transformers-2..
But e queue was damn shit long...
So I hv to q since im e 1 reach there 1st..
But hey,e movie obviously didnt dissappoint me..
My fav i can say..
Feel lyk watching again..
But sad i didnt get to watch wif her..Miss her..
So im back home to post this out..
But i need to go off for now..
Need to get gd night rest..
Working later in e morning shift..12hrs yo..
Dats all for now,tc.

2009-06-27T00:23:00.000+08:00

Hey..Jus wanna write lil' post...
Had fun jus now watching Transformers-2..
But e queue was damn shit long...
So I hv to q since im e 1 reach there 1st..
But hey,e movie obviously didnt dissappoint me..
My fav i can say..
Feel lyk watching again..
But sad i didnt get to watch wif her..
So im back home to post this out..
But i need to go off for now..
Need to get gd night rest..
Working later in e morning shift..12hrs yo..
Dats all for now,tc.

2009-06-26T17:17:00.000+08:00

Hello everybody...Well...
As u can see...This is my first post..
So im new to this blog thing..
You know,jus wanna try something new..
Credit to my fren Hirah gendeng for helping me out creating one.
Thaks Hirah..

Let me share lil' thg about my life..
Serving NS in Police Force at the moment..
Working at Delta Division..But....
Cant share whats my post..Confidential..
Have fun,stress,curios working as Police Officer..
Yet..Being one of em' is my childhood dream..
So here's e tym for me to serve e nation..

Hmm...Mayb dats for now...
Going out wif my ex-colleagues ltr...
So getting ready now..
Take Care..
~We'll Miss You Michael Jackson~